Thursday, October 1, 2015

多么多么

我不太会表达自己。

千言万语
无法表达

多么多么
想找一个人
陪我环游世界

一个懂我的人

Friday, August 28, 2015

下一站

一瞬间,八个月过去了。头四个月有我最难熬的外科,接下来是令人讨厌的妇产科。当上司都活在压力下,做小的难免有点难过的。就降,也熬过了。喘了口气。八个月过去了!乐 =)

下一站,小儿科。我们每换一次Posting,就会换一个whatapp group。这个新组合,少了一个很熟悉的名字。这个女生和我一起度过四个posting,现在咱们分道扬路。她的那份自信,还有她别致的观点,少少改变了我的悲观。从不认识到合作无间,是很难得的。她在这一站下车了。会有谁上车呢?

Sunday, May 17, 2015

When I become an MO

I wish that,
I will never be constantly angry.
I wont throw tantrum at my junior
For something that I can not control.

I wish that,
I will never downgrade my junior
never shame them in front of patients
For we are all learning

I wish that
I will be patient
Make them understand what they don't
Forgive and Correct them

I wish that
I can be kind and approachable
I will be able to answer
uncertainties that I don't dare to ask

Because I know
that I too,
graduate from oversea
and needed some time to adapt

Because I know
that I will an example
for the following generation

Because I know
that I need
a teacher
instead of a judge




Saturday, April 25, 2015

Too many houseman

When there are 100 people working, you ll feel like you are the only one working, because the other 99 will think that the other 99 are doing the work.

Sometimes, this can be very frustrating. 2 people can go for simple tracing, a few ll end up somewhere unknown. And worse is, those that actually do the job have to carry the responsibility, even the blame and everything that happens.

You wanna talk about justice? Talk to me.

Monday, April 6, 2015

Colleagues

If you choose the right job, you won’t be working another day. Which is bullshit. Am I picking the right job? I used to love my job a lot, but when I shifted into working environment with strong hierarchy system, it is killing me. Do I still like my job? No, I don’t.

So. What matters the most, is actually not about the job, but about the people you are working with. One thing good about this posting is at least I get to meet a lot of new friends. I never thought that I can make friends in workplace. It used to be only colleagues. And I am glad that we went on a trip together. Not because the trip was awesome, but because somehow, I belong.

Nothing is permanent. Even anger. I can’t believe that all the negative perception can vanish into thin air, but it does. I am not even being careful. God must be laughing at me. I am glad I found back a friend, with new feeling, replacing the old.

Nothing is permanent. It’s like Brownian motion where particles move in opposite direction after colliding; not knowing when is the next collision.


朋友说,每个人都有各自的问题要面对, 或许,每个人都在孤身作战。大家一起孤身作战,这样想,反而没那么孤单了。我。赞同。

Saturday, March 21, 2015

小女孩的回忆

外科病房里,有一个十二岁的小女孩。她的妈妈得了末期癌症。她妈妈很痛苦的呻吟一段时间。现在完全陷入忧郁的状态。捧着一个比篮球还大的肚子。里面不是小孩,是很多很多的液体。皮包骨的身子加上憔悴的神情,看起来我都觉得心酸。小女孩就这样,握着她的手,轻轻的抚摸。她妈妈有很多很奇怪的要求,要下床,要行走。明明就不行,硬要小女孩帮她, 看到小女孩的无助,我无言。

十二岁,我觉得我什么都不懂。 她还会这样活着好一段时间不知道是件好事,还是坏事。我摸摸小女孩的头,问她有什么问题吗?她摇摇头,很无助的看着我。我也很无助的回望她。我尽量把她妈妈的衣服弄好,把她摆在最舒服的姿势。希望留在小女孩回忆里的是妈妈舒服的躺着。我能做到的仅仅如此。

Saturday, January 31, 2015

我未来的房子

我希望家里有一面墙,可以放一个世界地图,然后,在四周围挂上很多的我去过的地方。

我希望有一面很大的镜子,可以装我整个身体的,这样我就不用天天照黑玻璃。

我希望家里有很好的音响室,不会有回音的那种,然后里面放几个我要怎么睡就怎么睡的沙发,还有一个按摩椅。

我希望有一个浴缸,可以让我泡在里面整个小时。

我希望屋子里有很多看不到的柜子,因为我是个很喜欢收东西的人,我希望还能不停的收东西。

我希望有一个很好坐的客厅,可以请朋友上来坐坐。也希望我的人脉会越来越广,而不是随年龄减少。

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Tagging一个月

生活需要勇气。当其他人都逐渐OffTag 了,剩下我一个人的时候,更加需要勇气。每天七点到十点,泊车在同一个地方,做工做同一个东西,吃着同样的食物,我的生活机械化了。能够安慰自己的是,还好我没有什么包袱。

今天放工,我突然希望爸妈已经退休了。就乖乖在家里等我回家,不用那么幸苦去做工,天天煮汤给我喝就可以了。反正妈妈都不喜欢做工,而做工也是我唯一能够消耗时间的地方。

所以说,我是永远找不到另一半的,因为我不会是那个做在家里等丈夫的人。我反而希望有人会在家里等我。这样就更难了。我要找一个有抱负又没有包袱的人,有可能吗?

Tagging一个月。我好像有那种坐牢的感觉。老板,能不能减刑啊?