Monday, October 13, 2014

Study Study

"I hate MCQ. I Hate studying. I am sooo lazy. I dont like competition and I only like to sleep. I dont know why i am a doctor." instantly after typing this on facebook, I hurled myself on my bed. Just.Go.Die. Stupid CPG. Stupid MCQ. confuse me. Just shoot me please.

okay fine. Just felt like cursing. Thats all. 

Life goes on.

And all this while I thought I was heading toward the skill type of doctor rather than the brain type. Think again. Those Skill type doctor require high discipline (at least it looks like that in my hospital). So no more surgery, no more O&G. And it is sooo hard to practice on procedures now that there are millions of HO in my hospital. If i did not graduate from UGM, I dont even know how it feels like to pleural tap. And you want me to fight for procedures? arrrgh. It feels so like medical students all over again! Bite me please.

I need to study. Do you know how hard isit to catch up the differences between Malaysia and Indonesia health care system?! signnnnnnnn

arrrgh screw it! I might just end up in KK, or just open a cafe and chill.

Bad news is, I still need to pass my Medical posting. T.T i am too old to memorise.

Saturday, October 11, 2014

池鱼

一个极小的错误,往往会造成害死一大堆人的事故。天啊!怎么会这样?哪个笨家伙。气死人了!从来就不觉得用电话传达讯息有多可靠。那个笨家伙,传达错讯息。惨了。这下烦死了。现在我的大老板发火了。传说中的慈禧太后,听说真的很恐怖。我只不过是个很无辜的池鱼,老天爷啊,就绕了我吧。

Friday, October 10, 2014

前面的那条路

我只是一个很喜欢玩的人。我没见过的东西,对我而言,都特别有新鲜感。也许因为这样,我选择了医学,一个永远学不完,永远追不上的科系。也就因为我选择了医学,我想,我再也没什么机会出去玩了。

好想呐喊。我想拖着行李,去探索另一片我没见过的天地。好希望能够约到几个志同道合的朋友嘻哈的翻译异国人的语言,体验不一样的处境。

可是,在这年纪,大家都在打拼。我也早出晚归。大家都忙着铺好前面的那条路。感叹。

如果路的终点,我好像我的病人那样,不能动,要靠鼻胃管进食,每两个小时翻一次。天天会有一个傻白的HO进来问我的看护人,我有什么问题,问我有什么变化。而我,就这样傻傻的望着他,目光空白,不说话,不动。到时的我,会否想起,像画一样让人窒息的美景,然后用余存的那一份力,摔坏支撑我的机器?


简单的一个问题,那我应该选择做普通诊所的打工族,固定的上下班时间,还是依随我狮子座自视过高的个性,追求一些不实际的名利

也许前面的那条路还遥远,还是专注自己能否胜任这份难做的差事再说。