Sunday, December 28, 2014

end of medical

一眨眼,Medical 就过去了。我不知道自己是喜欢工作环境呢,还是喜欢medical。就,很多事都make sense to me。老板也很通情达理。有时候我不觉得自己在做工了,不会特地避开grandwardround,也不会被针对。每天都学新东西。这四个月天天都开着灯睡着的,勤劳到连我自己也不敢相信。如果housemanship每个posting都这样子,多好。多有建设性。我不怕工作多,只怕老板不明事理。我不求荣华富贵,只求良师益友。

Saturday, November 15, 2014

马印困合语

很多人都会问我是不是华人。我看起来也许没有很像华人,可是他们比较好奇的是我马来语很难听出华人腔。然后我都会加一句,因为我在印尼活了五年。很想再加一句,你听到的不是纯正马来语,是塑造今天的我的马印困合语。

Monday, October 13, 2014

Study Study

"I hate MCQ. I Hate studying. I am sooo lazy. I dont like competition and I only like to sleep. I dont know why i am a doctor." instantly after typing this on facebook, I hurled myself on my bed. Just.Go.Die. Stupid CPG. Stupid MCQ. confuse me. Just shoot me please.

okay fine. Just felt like cursing. Thats all. 

Life goes on.

And all this while I thought I was heading toward the skill type of doctor rather than the brain type. Think again. Those Skill type doctor require high discipline (at least it looks like that in my hospital). So no more surgery, no more O&G. And it is sooo hard to practice on procedures now that there are millions of HO in my hospital. If i did not graduate from UGM, I dont even know how it feels like to pleural tap. And you want me to fight for procedures? arrrgh. It feels so like medical students all over again! Bite me please.

I need to study. Do you know how hard isit to catch up the differences between Malaysia and Indonesia health care system?! signnnnnnnn

arrrgh screw it! I might just end up in KK, or just open a cafe and chill.

Bad news is, I still need to pass my Medical posting. T.T i am too old to memorise.

Saturday, October 11, 2014

池鱼

一个极小的错误,往往会造成害死一大堆人的事故。天啊!怎么会这样?哪个笨家伙。气死人了!从来就不觉得用电话传达讯息有多可靠。那个笨家伙,传达错讯息。惨了。这下烦死了。现在我的大老板发火了。传说中的慈禧太后,听说真的很恐怖。我只不过是个很无辜的池鱼,老天爷啊,就绕了我吧。

Friday, October 10, 2014

前面的那条路

我只是一个很喜欢玩的人。我没见过的东西,对我而言,都特别有新鲜感。也许因为这样,我选择了医学,一个永远学不完,永远追不上的科系。也就因为我选择了医学,我想,我再也没什么机会出去玩了。

好想呐喊。我想拖着行李,去探索另一片我没见过的天地。好希望能够约到几个志同道合的朋友嘻哈的翻译异国人的语言,体验不一样的处境。

可是,在这年纪,大家都在打拼。我也早出晚归。大家都忙着铺好前面的那条路。感叹。

如果路的终点,我好像我的病人那样,不能动,要靠鼻胃管进食,每两个小时翻一次。天天会有一个傻白的HO进来问我的看护人,我有什么问题,问我有什么变化。而我,就这样傻傻的望着他,目光空白,不说话,不动。到时的我,会否想起,像画一样让人窒息的美景,然后用余存的那一份力,摔坏支撑我的机器?


简单的一个问题,那我应该选择做普通诊所的打工族,固定的上下班时间,还是依随我狮子座自视过高的个性,追求一些不实际的名利

也许前面的那条路还遥远,还是专注自己能否胜任这份难做的差事再说。

Sunday, September 7, 2014

一场车祸

小时候这种题材,我都是当路人的。为什么当时没有想过用当事人做作文。

我照常用清醒驾车,用理智过马路。一股很大的力量把我的车推到divider。我还来不及回过神,两个身体往我车前滚过。我才惊觉,我撞到人了。不,应该说,他的摩托撞到我了。

我马上下车。第一个动作是道歉。不管谁对谁错,当时候,没那么重要。意外,没有人愿意。
一个男人躺在地上,动弹不得。一个女人在他身边,双双清醒。我也很讶异,我会那么镇定的叫路人打电话给救伤车。第一时间叫他别乱动。

这个时候,女人开始紧张。“妹妹呢?” 他妈的!什么妹妹?!有三个人!小的在哪?心一跳,我慌了。还好她在车的另一边,不是在车底。三个没戴头盔的家伙撞到我了。

路边的路人拔刀相助,帮忙指挥交通的,这个童话故事是真的。有一个路人,不管一切抱起小孩,说要送她进医院。我也不知道是应该还是不应该。怎么能乱动伤者?!可是我也没法阻止。路边也多了很多做生意的,保险的。也有一些志愿想做评判的。

我第一时间就只想到爸爸。只有他能搞定一切。我什么都不会。最后等伤者被载到医院,我的车被吊走,我才到警局报警。

人命脆弱。想象一下,他们三个人,也许只是简单的想去买冰淇淋,就这样住院去了。那样一撞,不是我受伤,而三个人受伤受罪,我有一种对不起自己良心的感觉。我从来都不觉得我的命有多么珍贵,可是,夺人命,不是我的职业。

还挣扎是否去看他们。最后决定,还是交给警方处理。

Saturday, August 23, 2014

电梯

一大清早,天还没亮, 大楷五点吧,我半睡半醒的按了电梯那个“上”的箭头。四周一片寂静。一声巨响,电梯门开了。里头的灯闪闪的,慢慢亮了。什么电梯啊?!那么可怕。没法子,我叹了气,踏进去。门关了。电梯明明是G楼上三楼,显示荧幕上却写着29下26。什么啊!当电梯门开了后,我探出头来,确定是B3,才踏出去。第一天从block D 换到periphery 工作,我才发现需要和电梯有密切的合作。

基本上,我在Periphery工作,就是说,医院哪一个角落有referal给我们骨科的,我们就会做先锋去看看。比起以前只待在ward里有趣多了。我们的病人就分布在各个角落,早上还得早点follow up,因为还要算进去一些步行的时间。也因为这样,我们不停的上电梯,下电梯。

还有一次,电梯开的时候,里面有三个印度外劳,电梯灯坏了,可是上下功能还能用。其中一个uncle说,“doctor,要上吗?灯坏了”。犹豫了一下,算了吧。真不能想象当电梯门关上,一片黑暗的时候,会发生什么事。只有在这里,没有灯的电梯,是能够用的耶!

这个自英国统治时期就存在的医院,设备自然是古老了些。可是还是得感恩有电梯可以用。要不然我必须上下多少个四楼。不累死才怪。

Friday, July 25, 2014

短暂的幸福

人家说,开心或不开心,都源自于心。要看得开,放得下,才会开心。要做你自己喜欢的工作,才会开心,才会上进。曾几何时,我也十分投入我的工作。没有出粮的koas,反而让我有做医生的感觉。现在呢,我没什么喜欢我的工作了。工作天天听上司命令,可是有什么小差错,责任就降在我们这些‘小的’。是很可怜的咯。我只能天天祈祷,望我做事小心谨慎,平平安安过一天,就短暂的开心一天。哈哈。这是否是人家说的‘活在当下’呢?

Monday, June 2, 2014

打工一族

开工的第一个星期,
就是跟上跟下。因为很多很多都不熟悉,所以用看来学习。医院很大,第一天竟然找不到自己泊车在哪里而放弃回家歇息两个小时。

开工的第二个星期,
发现东西都很陌生。对这里的System很不习惯。做了几个刻骨铭心的错误,但不至于杀伤人命。Orthopedic为起点,我不知道应该哭还是应该笑。所有的所有,都非常非常的陌生。我五年半所学的东西,好像派不上用场的感觉。好像天天都Overtime.

开工的第三个星期,
开始发觉,当所学的和所做的有一点点相似,就是我慢慢适应的时候了。人生还是有希望的。做什么东西都非常非常小心。这份工作极度危险。几个前辈觉得我们这些新来的很有动力。

开工的第四个星期,
开车上班,开车回家。唯一听到不关工作的话题,是OneFM的声音。

开工的第五个星期,

望着墙壁倒数回家的次数增加。好像不是医生的感觉。户口的五千令吉却像五千印尼币那样,派不上用场。我没有朋友,只有一班同事。一个机器人,上班下班,做一些不由得我做主义的工作。累,工作时间长而身体累。累,没人了解,没人诉苦而心理累。

Friday, May 30, 2014

当初的第一天

如果有一天,
我变成出色的医生
我希望我不会忘了
当初的第一天。

让我变成出色的医生
可以吗?

Sunday, April 27, 2014

A New Chapter

I realised I been having this blog since the day I dedicated my life to medicine.

Ups and Downs. Perspective changed, along with some undiscovered character and invaluable experiences.

Now I have to flip the page and unlock a new chapter. 

Marching into the World of Work, Stress, Reality and Community.

Dr Ng. A name which bear more responsibilities than glamour. 

Tomorrow, I will be starting a new Job in Malacca General Hospital as an inexperience HO 

I do not know whether I am ready. 

Perhaps I never will be, until I know that I am.

Friday, April 25, 2014

PTM

Program Transformasi Minda. Something that I waited for ages. Eager to know where I will be posted. Excited and full of energy.

I had almost 12 hours of sleep everyday throughout the holiday, and in PTM I had to wake up at 7am, and the schedule was quite tight.

This time, there were 3 location of PTM camp. 2 in Port dickson, 1 in seremban. So plenty of intake this round, mainly students from Indonesia and Melaka Manipal.

Group works with people of different study background added on my worries on syllabus differences. After all i been taking a lot of bad reviews on Indonesian graduates. Nevertheless, i believe that we have determination to get through this. I hope we are not as bad as I thought.
My group, group 7. Diversity creates marvellous interaction. Somehow its nice working with them.

I think our group created the best pictures though. *proud*
The main highlight in this camp was my posting. To my disappointment, I dint get my first choice. My first choice was full. So i got my third choice. That night i had insomnia. This is so out of expectation, and something out of my comfort zone. I tried to figured out all possibilities that i might face, and all difficulties that i might encounter. Perhaps, all these are pointless. Rumours, Reviews, I had no idea which to trust now. One thing for sure, I am confused and anxious. But i decided to stick to fate for one time in my life.

PTM will be the last moments we, the UGM-er share together.
First wave 2008 UGM graduates in PD Golf Club.
Perhaps the next time we meet, we will have different stories to tell, with different aims in life, different career path. Good luck buddies. I surely miss you guys~

Monday, April 14, 2014

stationeries holder

I know I am too free

when I made this

out of 2 chocolate drink bottle and 2 yogurt bottle.


And I am awesome. Thank you~

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Call for duty

The letter had arrived. Kementerian Kesihatan Malaysia (KKM) hired me to start housemanship training.

Next stop: Program Transformasi Minda (PTM) in Port Dickson Golf and Country Club

Monday, April 7, 2014

行李

前一阵子在报纸上看到一个文章。去旅行的行李有猴子,老虎,猪,马和羊,你会先放弃哪一样?

什么啦。嫌行李不够重吗?

又闹又乱的猴子,也可以是寂寞时的伙伴。会享吃享睡的猪。安详的羊,默默在一边吃草,在最需要的时候,供出羊奶羊肉。戴有王字额头的老虎,一个不小心被它的威严霸气吃掉,却可以是一群饿狼里的武器。能够带我到处奔驰,逍遥自在的马。hmmm...

猪,猴子,羊,老虎,马,顺序放弃。

有的人去旅行,就喜欢吃,喜欢睡。旅行呆在旅馆到午时出发,就吃吃喝喝,挺享受的。这就是所谓的猪。有的人会玩会闹,不时闯祸,不时冒险,紧张刺激,不能静坐,只有动、玩、新鲜感满足他。这就是猴子。羊默默在背后供你不时之需,应该只有家人吧。老虎是尊严,是霸气,一个主义者做策划做决定,还好啦。而马,那是向往的自由,随机应变,随心所欲。

一只动物都不带,逍遥自在,要到哪里就到哪里,随心所欲。把所有顾虑都放下,才叫真正的旅行。固然快活,也未免寂静了点。每一只动物,是不一样的伙伴。去同一个地方,会有不一样的旅程。不管哪一个动物作伴,有利有弊,随人所好不同。如果把每一只动物都带上飞机,会是世界大战。你眷顾得了每只动物吗?

最好的就是,有一个会享受生活的,会玩乐,和我一样喜欢世界的奇妙,会做主,会策划的,和我一样向往同一样东西的。最好会在不时只需出现的,不离不弃的。这样子的,不多不少,一个就够。


五合为一的神兽,我去哪里找啊?!

Saturday, March 22, 2014

Waiting for posting

What I am doing everyday?

Despite sleeping, eating and interneting, I keep an eye on my post box and my mailbox.

Every now and then I will check my mailbox because I have sent an email to the JPA officer and she has yet to reply my email.

Every morning I will wait for the postman to send me my offer letter from health department regarding my posting. I dislike uncertainties. Why can't they just tell me where I will be sent to one month earlier, so I have a chance to prepare, physically and mentally?

This is exhausting. I mean the waiting, not the holiday.

I will miss this kind of holiday once that much awaited yet much unwanted offer letter arrive. Dilemma. Yes indeed.

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Taiwan Trip last three days @ TaiPei City

When we reached Taipei the first night, we were lost. The hostel gave us a wrong address. Apparently the owner has three different buildings, so the one we booked online was not the one assigned for us. We were quite frustrated with the Fun Backpackers that night. But Wifi, and bread were provided for our breakfast. That night, we walked around 士林夜市Shilin Night Market. The food court is like parking lot, underground.

The next Morning, we departed to 阳明山 Yang Ming Shan to see flower. Then again, it was not really the season yet. The wind was strong and i accidentally slipped M's iphone on the ground. Oh NO! So there goes his mood to travel for the day.
Mr YangMing. 27 years ago, my mum stood the exact same spot to take pictures. Haha.
We couldn't wait to leave this strong wind and headed to 中正纪念堂zhongzheng memorial hall. Some event was going on there, so plenty of panda statues were placed in the square.
Changing of guards
The muzeum gallery
Everyone said you must try the food on the train. So we went to buy our 火车便当. For me, its normal only lo. Maybe the others were a bit exaggerated.
火车便当
龙山寺
We went to XiMenDing to shop. The stuff there were more of normal night market price. Not much of branded products. There is a shop selling mi sua. Nice leh. I like.
西门町
Since there was nothing much to see, we went to 五分埔 wufenpu. The whole night market sells cloths. Cheap cloths, i was afraid that the cloths will shrink or go out of shape when i reached home, thus did not dare to buy any. We headed to RaoHe night market. Well, This night market indeed offered a variety of food. Is more variety than quantity.
饶河夜市
Day 2 in taipei, we headed to 猫空. We took the cable car across the mountain, particularly chose the one with glass floor. We met two sarawakian in the cable car.
view of taipei
There was a shop offering free biscuit to try
Tea muzeum
This restaurant offered dish cooked with tea leaves. Not bad.
We also visited the Zoo next to it to see Panda and penguin. Haha. There were three Panda there, 园园,团团 and their kid 园仔
We took a bus to 101.
鼎泰丰. isit me, or the quality not really that nice.
城品书店. This is a paradise of books. English books were relatively cheap. Too bad i dont have enough time to stay for long. If i lived in Taipei, i would vote this as my favourite spot.
We were crazy walker. We walked all the way from 101 to chengping, then now we walked to Ez5. Not everyone can walk like us. Naaah. This is my modal for being young. Ez5 is a pub with singers, slightly professional singers that have not turn famous. There were three singers for tht night, 张心杰,赖明伟,and another lady who replaced 黄嘉千. If i were to come taiwan again, i ll come here again.
Last day in Taipei, we visited 故宫博物院. They have the largest collection of vast, only if i understand how to read antiques. Third floor is always full. People squeezed there to see the cabbage made of Jade, and a few antiques that I dont understand.
One of the things that caught my attention was the multimedia technologies there. You take a photo with the camera there, and your face will appear as one of the cartoon character in the huge monitor.
After lunch, we headed to 淡水Tamshui. Jay Chou had made this place famous. We chose a Saturday, went all the way down to visit his school, the one he used as a scene in the movie 'secret'. But luck was not with us, it was closed when we reached there. Such a disappointment.

We walked back to 淡水老街. As it was a Saturday, and the weather was perfect, the street was full of people.
We took a ferry ride across the sea to Fisherman wharf 渔人码头. A Lovers bridge 情人桥 was built there, actually with not much of a function.
To end the night, we went back to 忠孝东路. A place for shoppings. Reasonable price, and plenty of shopping malls. There was a song by 动力火车 that said 忠孝东路走九遍 walk night round in zhongxiao donglu. Haha. Its impossible!
I ended the night with Ice Monster. Huge bowl of Mango Ice. Freaking Nice.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Taiwan trip day 9 @ Ye Liu

Before we depart to Ye liu, we had a walk at Jiu Fen Old Street. The shops opened at 9am and closed at 7pm. The food was worth trying.

We went back to our hostel, carried our luggages and took a bus to KeeLung Train Station. From there, we took another bus opposite the train station to Ye Liu. The jouney was indeed long and tiring. Hope it worth the journey.
A lot of fisherman boats there
Entrance is 80NTD. And it worth the journey and the price. Why isn't this in the seven wonders?! Its so special! I felt like walking on the moon. All this coral floated on the land. simply WOW!
candle rock
Mushroom Rock
Queen Elizabeth Rock. The neck is getting thinner by day, in 5 to 10 days this will no longer exists.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Taiwan trip day 8 @ Old town Jiu fen

九分,十分,平溪 are all old towns in the eastern part of taipei. We Stayed in a hostel in Jiufen called 丽景民宿, which is narrow, but the owner is a nice woman. Jiu fen  is known to be 山城 city on the mountain. Houses were built on the mountain with black roof to cater for the water drainage system, and certain measurements were taken to overcome the strong wind.
Jiu Fen 

Carrying luggages through the stairs required hard work, really. And to pass by narrow streets and curvy stairs were new experience to me. After leaving our luggages in the hostel, we departed to 金瓜石JinGuaShi, a place used to mine gold.

There is a gold museum not far away, we took a bus there. We learned how the people here lived during the Japanese Era. There is a huge piece of gold in the museum where everyone can try touch it.
黄金瀑布 HuangJin Waterfall. Last time, the water used to flow down to pieces of Shining Gold. Just close your eyes and imagine. 
I supposed the colors were due to the minerals.
We were lucky to meet a good bus driver, who stopped for us to take pictures at places with great scenery. How often do you meet such people on a public bus?
阴阳海 Ying Yang Sea. I could not see the border between the sky and the sea, can you? 
Simply amazing
We headed to ShiFen. According to the owner of my hostel, we could stop at 大华station, because it is nearer to the waterfall. But what we saw was railway track with a huge sign, DO NOT WALK ALONG THE RAILWAY TRACK. We asked the villagers nearby, and the aunty told us its okay. Alright, so we did the locals way. I supposed trains dont actually pass by this track often, or they don't speed up on this side of the track. The most exciting part is pass through a 100m tunnel. Crazy Ass. And at the opposite of the tunnel, we met this bunch of Hong Kee, who also wanted to walk on the track.
十分瀑布
We took the train down to 平溪, searching for the scene of the movie 《那些年,我们一起追的女孩》. To our surprise, the town was quite quiet.
平溪
So We turned back to 十分to 放天灯. Now the trend is to release Lantern on the working railway track. When trains come, the authority will start to make announcement and clear the track. Luckily the weather was cooperative.
十分故乡放天灯
We went 阿妹茶楼 to drink tea. It is not cheap, but the tea was the best i ever tasted. The environment was perfect too, a little bit gloomy, a little bit of melancholic. Even the name of the tea is Melancholic as well. 孤女的愿望 Wing of a lonely girl, that is what we ordered.
Full set of tea set, with an expert teaching us the right way to make right tea.
View from the 茶楼. Superb!
A must try
The next morning, i went back the place to took a photo of how it looks like in day time.