Sunday, October 25, 2009

New Member

A new member arrived at our house!

A dog!

I help Yinli picked this dog, the nauthy-iest among all! He is a big bully though. That explained his big tummy, i guess. His siblings must be celebrating upon the farewell of him.

Pretending to be cute eh!

Deep in thought...

We helped Wern Sern fetch his dog also. But, his dog had injured his leg, perhaps bitten by our big bully. That is why his howling sounds "oooh.. miserable, why on earth should I be raised up with this bully!" That night itself, Wern Sern and all his house mates came to fetch him back and he stop howling after that. What a fuck! Yes, all five house mates came for a little tiny puppy! haha

As for our dog, I guess he couldn't bother more. At least now he had the whole box by himself and the whole plate of food by himself. Can you believe it, he licked from his brother's mouth to get the milk! Greedy dog.

It feels like daddy day care though, feeding this dog when he howls, take it out to pee when he howls... and hey, he knows how to pee on the right spot! Smart huh...

He dint have any name yet. Any suggestion?

Tuesday, October 20, 2009


It’s like a burning hell lately!
Can’t resist the heat!
Sleepy, Moody, Thanks to the Sun!
Constantly hydrating myself
Still, I soaked in sweat.

Screw the weather
Screw the heat wave
Constantly see-ing updates on weather in facebook
He had got all the attention!

Monday, October 19, 2009










I need a break
to runaway from everything
from human being
from lecture notes

I need to hear more kind words
to boost my confident
in humanity


I went TBMM Adventure camp yesterday. It was damn Fun!!!! Hahaha..

We built our tent with rain coat. Wah sai, never see before eh. They have their own innovation though.

This is my group mates

At night, we walked in the forest, climbing up and down the slope in the dark. I must say, my torch hates me, ‘cause it wasn’t bright enough. Luckily I was in the same group with Ge-An, and he was considerate enough to shine my way through. Haha. Ge-An again?! Ya, I know…

There was a rapid flowing river. It was icy cold, and we stood in there for quite some time, listening to them lecturing us. Damn sweat. There was a distance when each of us hold a candle in our hand, and walk pass the forest alone. Haha. Damn fun. I was thrilled.

We came back from the adventure at around 2am, slept for a while before they woke us up, closed our eyes with the cloth, and walked us to an empty land in blind. All we can see is darkness, noises, and me, trying frantically to stay awake. I was about to fall asleep, standing.

“pantas enggak?! Nak jadi anggota TBMM, pantas enggak?”

What is pantas? Fast? Aiya, whatever la, I just raised my hand.

The truth is, there are a lot of words that I don’t understand though.

Then, they say, they will tab the shoulder of those who pass, I heard the opposite. When my shoulder wasn’t tab, I was happy for a moment. When I realised the truth, oh shit! Damn sad. But, I kind of wonder, how they recognise us in the dark? If this camp is a selection camp, how they assess us? Make no sense! But, when the person beside me was tabbed and walked away, the sadness rush in.

“Those that din’t get, I am sorry, there will be a bus at 7.40 to send you back. Those that pass, please stay back, we got some activities for you. Now, panitia, please put the badge on the right hand of those who pass…” damn shit damn shit!!!

“ok, now, everyone, you can open the cloth.” I looked around, saw many disappointed face in between us. “now, look at the things you are holding.”

The slayer, with TBMM batch on it!!!! I was so blur, I asked the Indonesian beside me, “apa maksud nya?”

Yea! I passed!

That morning, we played games. It was real fun. My whole body was wet, falling into a pool of water, while crossing on the bamboo above.

Wait, that wasn’t all. When we were about to go back, there was a strong wind. Extreme strong wind. And 5meter infront of me, I saw a four floor high tree, break into two, and falls right infront of me! OH MY GOD!!!! Then, everyone started running into the shelter. The wind was.. very very strong. Nice experience and luckily i was 5 meter away.

Thursday, October 15, 2009


Ileum adapts to become colon in the absence of colon.

It is not surprising how human changes and adapts to environment.
A trustable person will turns out to be a betrayer.
A person who keeps secret turns out to be someone who spread the news.
Somehow rather, people do change.


I am too stubborn to accept the fact
And cling on to what I believe


Wednesday, October 14, 2009

wooden shelter

It was raining pretty hard that day. I was hiding from the rain, with a friend, under a wooden shelter which almost falls apart. Fast flowing current flooded the road. Damn! Couldn’t go back even though it was so near. I was supposed to collect the wood for TBMM and God Damn it! The rain just won’t stop and the shelter began to leak. Storms and lighting accompanied.

“How is everyone else doing?” I asked, worried, and perhaps not expecting an answer.

“erm…” she was thinking hard what to say, “who you wanna know?”

“Anyone. Everyone.”


“I told my parent I was on average.”

“well… not really true… you were below the average.”

I squat down, buried my head in my palms. B/C. What am I supposed to do? Think think think. And the rain just won’t stop. Stranded in a wooden shelter, my whole body drenched wet, still unable to cover my tears and fears.


Half a year passed. I took remedial for that block. And the first moment I saw my result.

“you were below average.” And lighting flashed…

God… Thank God, this time, I am not below average anymore. Thank God. That was my first thought.

Then, immediately, I wish to tell her this news. Took out my hand phone, typed a few words, undecided for a moment… then I shifted my thumb… to the delete button. Unsent.

Things had changed. A lot. For me. For everyone.

The wooden shelter no longer exists. It was blown down by the wind.


gone with the storm.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009




Monday, October 12, 2009

Dear God- AvengedSevenfold

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

I keep wondering what it means,
but either way,
it stays the same...

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Hard disk

SCREW the IP computer! SCREW my lovely hard disk!!! SCREW myself!!!

This morning i was happily transfering some pictures into my hard disk from the IP computer.
Sob, that was the last time i see the content of my hard disk!

G:/ is not acessible.
The disc structure is corrupted and unreadable.

*hair pulling moment*
Wah!!!! WHAT SHOULD I DO MAN!!! all my Ebooks, all my movie dramas, all skill labs video, everything, vanished into thin air!!!! OH noooo!!!!

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Shit Happens

Shit Happens today!

This is the first time I take inhall (means doing some extra assignment or attending extra class due to poor result). The thing is, I din’t even sit for the pre test to get the poor results. Damn the IP staff. They told Safwan the class is in RP, and we went to there. When we finally realise it was in Anatomy lab, we rush there, too bad only able to hear Dr. Jun said, “Those that come late, straight away inhall.” What the hell!!! I haven’t even sat for the prê test!!! Great, extra assignment! Even though the pre test has only 5 questions, I should at least pass after a long late night mugging at that embryology book. See, now, all my hard work, just vanished!!!

Then, the Skill lab class, we lost again. Can they actually write the location of our class in our timetable?! Luckily we weren’t late though. But the stupid thing is, I copied what the teacher said in a book I thought was mine. When I found it wasn’t, damn! I have to recopy and erase other people’s book. What a nice effort!

And nowadays, I have some sort of cognition disorder. I wanted to send message to someone, but instead of sending it to the right person, I sent it to the wrong one. I sent message to Effa who sit right beside me when I am supposed to send to Safwan. I almost sent message to Vee, asking when is his surprise party when I am supposed to ask Ho Hwee. God!


Saturday, October 3, 2009

Mooncake festival

We celebrated mooncake festival. We lighted up some tanglung, bring it to the street and caught some attention. Their eyes read, “Am I seeing something I am not supposed to see.” I guess they have never see tanglung before.

Then, we ate mooncake. How can mooncake festival not have mooncake right?

That night, there was no electricity. It was like a planning from God. Playing candle in a blackout night right on mooncake festival is just soooo right. Many people were invited though. There was no moon. She hides behind the cloud. Lack of some romance then. But still, happy mooncake festival!

One more thing, the mooncake I brought from Malaysia spoilt before the festival itself. Pity me. Shit!

IFF 2009

Our batch held IFF 2009 for the juniors. Too bad many of them din't turn up, thinking it was some kind of ragging. Disappointed.

Well, initially, i was interested in doing the modules (planning for games), but due to some reasons, I changed to photography. Haha. come to think of it, it wasn't that bad though. I manage to catch many good shots. But, hey, the module head actually take in some of my ideas. Not bad huh.

We have mass dance, which reminds me our our AJ mass dance “that girl”. We had the junior to dress in costume at night. Well, I wrote the batch blog, so I don’t feel like repeating the same story. Visit if you feel like knowing more. Haha. Our batch doing Batch Cheer...

But honestly, I start to love dancing though. Haha. No talent, but wanted to give it a try. Yes, starting salsa again this Saturday. yo... let the flow begins.

Thursday, October 1, 2009