Tuesday, November 25, 2008


The more you want something, the harder it comes to you. You might just get something when you least expecting it. Things that you get easily usually slip away. But even if you work hard for it, it might not stay. Back to scratch. No matter how badly you want something, no matter how important it is to you, whether you expecting it or not, is all just temporary.
There is this thing called fate. It is hard to explain how a twitch can change your life. Friends to enemy, enemy to friends; not much different, I reckoned. Who say it must be uncomfortable to stay near an enemy? Who say it must be comfortable to be with a friend? Who say enemies are the one that makes you cry? Who say friends are the one that make you laugh? It might just be an opposite.
I am not paranoid, just sensitive. I am not guessing, just feeling. Why no one ever understands me and belief me? Why no one ever border how I feel? Why do I have the feeling that I am disappearing? Why do people keep telling things and pretend that it is true? Why must everyone betray each other and wear a mask around? Suddenly my soul felt empty. Pathetic. No one to trust, no one to lean on, no one to listen. Pathetic world with pathetic people.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Tornado In UGM

I was on the computer, posting the previous post. Tutorial class ends early that day and I was waiting for 3 o’clock to arrive. It was drizzling outside and I wonder whether the CIMSA makrab will be postponed.
I could hear the wind howling outside, and it was getting stronger. Suddenly, I heard some high pitch shout. I exchange glance with Azman who sat opposite me. Before we could react, there was a blackout. The seniors warned us to run out. When we flip open the curtain, we were shock to see some leaves swirling around by the strong current of air. All the lecture notes cluttered the floors. The curtain spoiled. Rain splashed in. People kept pushing the glass door to stop the wind from blowing in. It was chaotic.
Then, Mbak Dewi called us into the office. She said it was dangerous to stand hold the glass door in case it breaks. We hide inside the office, protected but able to see the outside. One of the under-construction buildings collapsed. The trees broke into half, some fall down, pulling the concrete together with it. Some roofs were damaged and brought away by the small tornado. Everyone ran to hide in the building.
Just then, we remembered that Yan Yi and Ho Hwee were on the way to campus. We quickly warned them. Surprisingly, they are not aware of the storm. It seems that the tornado only strike a particular place (the campus) and leaved after almost half an hour.
The road was blocked by the collapsed trees. The Taman Medica turned into a forest with all the collapsed trees. The Radiopoetra was flooded as the rain splashed in. The whole place was like never the anymore.
Raining cats and dogs outside...

Taman medika turn into hutan medika

big trees break into two

IP chaotic

Friday, November 7, 2008


Sometimes I wonder why we become friends. Sometimes I wonder why we fought. The funniest thing is we managed to become friends again after we fought. Always like this. Perhaps our friendships prove to be strong (which I hope I am not the only one who think that way). I guess I will never doubt this anymore. Hopefully.

Lately, people had been teasing me with Gan. Ya, after they are bored teasing me with WP. How funny was that, I only spoke to him once. Yesterday, that bunch of guys called me in the middle of the night so that I can sing a birthday song for him. So swt! Hmm… wondering why I am the target for this kind of prank. But, who cares, it will recede soon. Guess I am just some lunch time topics to release stress. You know, medical student, stressssss!! DESSERTS and STRESSED is just interrelated.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008


I am numb. No feeling at all. Anger? No. Sad? No. Disappointed? No. Feel sorry? No. Nothing at all. I wonder why. May be I don’t really care anymore. Maybe. Maybe we both changed. Maybe we are no longer what we expect the others to be. Maybe you are right that I am annoying. Maybe you really mean you don’t need a friend like me. You have your new aim, I have mine. We are different, not the same. You are wrong. We are not the same anymore. Not after we come here. Definitely. Perhaps is time to find new friends. Perhaps it is time to detach from you. We fought many times. Pointlessly. Ask me if I mind your harsh words to me. I shall say I take into consideration that you meant everything you said. You always does.

Monday, November 3, 2008


Yesterday, I went to temple and pray. This time we sat down together and read the mantra. New experience.

That afternoon, there is a blackout again. There had been lots of blackout lately, until we planned to buy a backup lamp. Seriously, we can’t do anything in the dark, can we? The only thing we can do is gossip. There had been lots of gossips. Kean Seng, Mak and Wei Hern always came here and gossips along too. Guess we had changed the 1st floor of girls’ kost into gossip café.

I finished watching moonlight resonance. Great drama! But I think is time to start studying heart now. Next block, I will be Cadiorespiratory system, include all the heart, lung, CPR, vital sign and all. Hope this time I shall muster the block well.

Stupid me

I am so dumb!!! So So stupid!!! I wasted all my money!! I lost 50 thousand! I just don’t know how this happen, either I misplaced it or just… lost! OMG 50 thousand! Then, I called home. I forgot to add 01000 in front of the numbers. Again, I used up extra 70 thousand! What the hell. I can just call for 6000 instead of 70 thousand! OMG OMG! Those are extra money I am not supposed to spend! In total, I just threw away 120 thousand (RM50) in one day! OMG OMG! I can treat myself or buy another medical book with the money. But… here I threw away the money. Can I be more stupid than this? I am so depress, so sad. Ok. I shall not eat chicken for lunch in the next block. 7 weeks, each week save 10000, I can save back the money I lost.

Parang Tritis Beach

During Yin Li’s birthday, we planned something stupid. We hid in her room and gave her a surprise cake. But, the thing is, she knew we are up to something and purposely made us wait.

The next day, after we handed up our report, we went to Mirota Campus to top up our groceries. We had our lunch at Pondok Cabe. Nice place. The food is nice, but the serving is very small.

We came home about 3 pm, all were too tired to go anywhere. We planned to bring Yin Li to Parang Tritis Beach. But we told her we were bringing her to somewhere near, like ice-skating in Saphire. So, she was all prepared to go for ice-skate, wore her socks and jeans. She reminded everyone to bring socks too. All of us just pretended that we are going ice-skate. Bapak Mariono even drove through the taman so that Yin Li didn’t see that we missed Saphire. What a joke. The whole car knew we were going Parang Tritis except her. After quite long, she started to get worried and wonder why we haven’t reach Saphire yet. When we enter all the kampong area, she was afraid Bapak Mariono wanted to slaunter us or something. Haha. When we finally reached, the blur queen still didn’t know where we were. Haha.

Omg, can you see the beach. The sand is so smooth and the breeze is so refreshing.

We never bring any extra clothing. We never played water as it was Raining season. So, we had to be satisfied with just photos.

The sun set is beautiful.

As it was raining season, the wave is extremely strong. Thus, we don't dare to swim. The wave might bring us away.Refreshing breeze massaging our face, playing with our hair. The feeling is great, especially when we just finsh our exam.

"Yo, come Paris". But, remember not to wear green, cause you might irritate the sea God. And note, The shirt I wore is NOT GREEN.

Sand castle? I don't see any.... Guess we are not an expert though.

YanYi," look at my slippers!"

Me,"don't be stupid"

Ho Hwee,"lets make love" (means make a love shape, don't think too much)

I guess it is ok with some water splashing.
" I love nature"

Nice sun set. It painted the sky with hues of purple and red. What a scenery.

I tried to throw a message in the bottle to the sea, but it kept come back. Finally I gave up. Guess the wave is too strong.
After everything, Bapak Mariono brought us to Depok Beach for dinner. The seafood is really fresh and damn delicious. We went home after that.