A lot of farewell today. Last batch outing. Last dinner. Last meeting. It sounds like I won’t be seeing a lot of people after today.
Batch Outing was held in Lembah Benjo. We played lots of kids game like MSK (the orientation we had in first year). It is as if we must end off something just like the way we started it off. We even had this “ice breaking session” for few hours. Weird isn’t it, to have ice-breaking even we had known each other for almost four years. Even so, I guess it would be a great challenge for the organizers to try to heat us up. We were all too lazy to move our bones, and gave minimum responses. And poor Eunice jumping and shouting, trying to bring the spirits up. Haha.
And I tried flying fox and high rope today. Never played such land outdoor activities before. High Rope especially nearly robbed my nerves away. There were 8 pit stops. One of the few difficult ones was really hard to forget. And my rope got stuck in the middle, so I am kinda hanging by a thread, half way, shaking in the middle of the air. I just can’t stop my leg from shaking. It was automatic. DAMN DAMN DAMN! Then there were these few games that require tactics and brains. We ended off with some presentation slides. Apparently I never knew I had so many stupid photos. Since when it was taken, I had no idea. Haha. It was kinda sad, seeing all the past pictures to know how much we had grown up, and going to depart soon. Luckily the video songs weren’t that sentimental. I won’t want to tears there.
So, this is the end of it? Kinda hard to believe it is already the end of theory year, the end of whole batch sitting together in the lecture halls. I am living in denial.
I went to eat dinner with 20 of my friends. A few of them are leaving back to Malaysia, and I won’t be seeing them for another 10 weeks, or maybe more. Somehow my subconscious is not conscious of this truth. It is really hard to imagine how everything works. I just felt like an ordinary dinner, just like any other day. Numb. Clearly, the information had not been registered in my limbic system, blocked off by my defense mechanism. Or perhaps it had been masked by other things. I was too drained, mixing up jokes and rationale. Nothing seems to make sense to me. It just felt like...... a dream in a dream. And I, just, keep walking. Just keep walking. Just keep walking.