TBMM makrab vs Dance

Just came back from TBMM Makrab (majlis keakraban). Well, I thought it will be fun (since the seniors said so), but it was proven booooring!! Well, basically what we did most is to play some lame games and enjoy the air. I must say the air is extremely refreshing and cooling, coupled by the strong mist and drizzling rain, it is perfect to cuddle in warm blankets. Thumbs up for Kaliurang weather.

why am i wearing like this? haha. i was about to go for outbound (some activities in the wood).

Well, actually, Kenny asked me to dance with him (salsa) for the Olympiad Dance Competition. I hesitated at first, unconfident with my own ability. But, when I finally agreed and looking forward to it, I was told that it crashed with my TBMM Makrab. Fucking shit! So I had to give up this dance thingy. Haha. fate.... Perhaps, if I were the one dancing, they won’t win. But, still, trapping in the hall, playing some lame trading game, is extremely disappointing.

Perhaps like a friend said, you don’t know what God had planned for you, maybe this is the best for you, who knows, maybe I slipped on the stage, maybe I meet an accident, or maybe i disappoint them… haha. Okay... ya. maybe this is the best for us all.

Okay la, maybe it wasn't really that bad. The makrab was okay la. We stared at the camp fire for a very long time, and they talked something I don't really listened, but i was thinking of myself and my life. Somehow, i realised that God wanted me to know that I should be more humble and thus took away some part of my achievement, together with my pride. Perhaps He wants me to know that I can lost everything in a single day, and gain or loss in life really means nothing. I gain 2 scholarships, so what?! I WAS a good student, so what?! In the end, i ended up here, feeling hopeless and helpless in most of the things i do. And i always wonder, when will life be smooth sailing, and will I stop complaining?! I realised i will not. Haha. Guess is really time for me to learn not to avoid the storm, but learn how to dance in the rain.

可是，说真的，最大的收获应该是我找到一个能够长谈的朋友吧。哈哈。

Diwali Night

I hadn’t been updating my blog for quite some time. Not that I already forget about my blog, in fact, I been thinking about it all the time. But, somehow rather, I stopped myself from updating. For a simple reason, I still think life is not interesting, and there is nothing interesting enough to fit in here. Rather than allowing emo-ness sips in, I prefer silence take place.

Actually, many things happened this week. Despite the madness and craziness of studying, many things happened. Last Saturday, I went for deepavali night. Deepavali?! Yup. A very late one. Basically, I just borrowed a Punjabi suit from Shamini, and set off to the ballroom. Wei Hern suggested to take a “family photo” with our Indian costume that day, so we went photo talk to take a nice photo. Apparently, I am still a girl who don’t know how to make-up and dress up. So, with only lipgross (is this how you spell it?) and mascara, I became the girl with the least make-up, almost original look there. The rest are all heavily make-up, and nicely dressed. Well…

I guess God has His way to arrange things. During photo talk, that camera men switch on the radio, “Dear God, by Avenged Sevenfold” haha. Coincidents. That evening, I just nice sat beside yanyi, and we talked. For the first time, after so many months, we talked. I have no idea why and how, but, we did talk like old friend. And that night, I received a flower, I means, many flowers, from a friend. Well, I think I wasn’t a good friend, cause I hurt him with my words, but he still gave me flowers. Funny, but haha… okay…

Deepavali night in Hyatt Hotel.

Me and Lian Jae (my salsa partner)

The event was fantastic. Dance was good, everyone in their best, performance was great, food was nice, but i have to admit the roti canai is a bit thick. Haha. After the whole event, they open the dance floor, and we party. Haha.

Then, I went Boshe that night. I drank a bit, not a lot, dance a while, and then come back. Many people went Boshe that night. We met the juniors and seniors. Haha. Half the dance floor fills with UGM students. Haha.

"Hands to Share" Charity Concert

A few days earlier, I attended “Hands To Share” Charity concert. A few of my batch mates perform violins and pianos on stage. There were also some Javanese instruments, Korean drum, Korean dance, Buddhist Monk dance, fusion of Korean and Javanese instrumental music, and a lady from US playing violin. I sat down the stage, my mind started to wander across the time zones.

Yinli played 20th century piece. Debussy eccentric chaotic General Lavine played with a good control of expression and tone. Of course. How could I ever played that!
“Come on… perform la Hui Ying…”
“I couldn’t. My piano sucks.” My hippocampus started to browse through the books, trying to find a piece I could master. No… None! I haven’t been touching piano for a very very long time! Performance?! Impossible.

Adi’s Fur Elise. Okay, if I were a few years younger, I could play like him. When I was a few years younger, I could. But, now, a simple piece will take me a decade to practice.

Lee Suan’s Debussy piece. OMG! She can play so well! Smooth. No wonder I failed my Grade 8. No wonder the examiner hates me so much. No wonder I stop where I am. Mrs Grace started to appear, laughing sinisterly at me. And me playing the piano, not knowing what I am playing. Playing or typing the notes, I wasn’t sure.

Susie played Maksim Croatian Rhapsody! I heard she just learned piano! Incredible!

Arh… why do people always have talent?! What am I good at?! Sometimes I just wish I have everything, but more often I realized I don’t even have a thing to be proud of. Haiz…

chaotic

My mind is in a chaotic state. Everything revolved around me centered to themselves. Selfish, inconsiderate, work for benefits, fake laughter, people, human, with their evil state of mind, just twist my brain, add noises to it, scratch it till I can barely recognize. I started to miss the past tense. I started to wish uncorrupted people appear in my life and make me believe in humanity. But I guess lust, greed and self-centered, they are just part of the term—grow up.

Ok… back to work!

Vertical and Water Rescue!

Last Saturday, I went for Vertical Rescue. Wanna know what’s that? They actually taught us how to climb up and down to rescue people. But, it is fucking difficult. We ascended the building from 3rd to 5th floor, and then descended from 4th to ground floor. A wonderful but tiring experience, indeed.

The descending was fun. Fast and easy. The ascending was the shitty part. I think I used every inches of my muscle to pull myself on that thing, and move inches by inches to get up. Half way through, I was so exhausted I couldn’t climb anymore. Then, I shouted up, “mas, saya udah capek! (Mr, I already tired)”. To my despair, he replied, “I couldn’t pull you up. You are half way through. The only way is to climb up here yourself!” DAMN IT! It was a lonely road. I hang there, half way in the air, ascending every centimeter I can. Despite cursing and swelling, I can’t feel my arms and legs anymore. When I reached on top, Oh Gosh! It’s heaven! Never been so happy my butt touched the floor.

The mas teaching us how to ascend...

One of our member there, climbing up!I was there too, just, no one help me take photos. haiz..

They demonstrated how to descend.

Me, descending!

Later, they demonstrated Howling and pulley system. I became the subject to be pulled up. Haha.. Fun!

The Next day, we went for Water Rescue. Haha. Now, they taught us how to rescue people in the water. We have rescue people with equipment, without equipment, and on land. It was fun though. Haha, photos come later ya!

New Member

A new member arrived at our house!

A dog!

I help Yinli picked this dog, the nauthy-iest among all! He is a big bully though. That explained his big tummy, i guess. His siblings must be celebrating upon the farewell of him.

Pretending to be cute eh!

Deep in thought...

We helped Wern Sern fetch his dog also. But, his dog had injured his leg, perhaps bitten by our big bully. That is why his howling sounds "oooh.. miserable, why on earth should I be raised up with this bully!" That night itself, Wern Sern and all his house mates came to fetch him back and he stop howling after that. What a fuck! Yes, all five house mates came for a little tiny puppy! haha

As for our dog, I guess he couldn't bother more. At least now he had the whole box by himself and the whole plate of food by himself. Can you believe it, he licked from his brother's mouth to get the milk! Greedy dog.

It feels like daddy day care though, feeding this dog when he howls, take it out to pee when he howls... and hey, he knows how to pee on the right spot! Smart huh...

He dint have any name yet. Any suggestion?

Hot!

It’s like a burning hell lately!
Can’t resist the heat!
Sleepy, Moody, Thanks to the Sun!
Constantly hydrating myself
Still, I soaked in sweat.


Screw the weather
Screw the heat wave
Constantly see-ing updates on weather in facebook
He had got all the attention!